I Am Not God So I Don't Forget Easily

TJ is sweet but he is not God. So he should stop acting like everyone has to kiss the ground he walks on. When he gets mad and vindictive, just let him be.

People who ask questions are not dumb, they are either curious or eager to learn more. There are times when you have to ask like how Einstein arrived with the relativity theory but for a normal and friendly conversation, you talk about little stuff that makes you happy. In the end, you are not dumb for missing out topics of Terri Schiavo, Condoleeza's visit to China, the current state of the economy and other high brow and senstational issues along their side.

"Friends tell you the truth even if you don't want to hear them. It's not because they want to hurt you; it's because they want you to be a better person. Having that said, they reserve no right to BACKSTAB, at all".

Kung gagawa ka ng katarantaduhan, huwag sa akin. Puñeta!

The Rewards of My Own Stress

Most of my close friends know how much stress I have been getting for the past 3 months of juggling work and school. Physically, it's deadly. There are times that it's really hard to drive at 5 o'clock in the morning with only 4 hours of sleep that night. Sometimes, I want to give up and sometimes I want to go home. I am glad that there are friends who continuously inspire and make me stronger. This day marked the middle of the spring semester and my professors already gave us our class standing. It's reflective on how much more effort you have to exert to pass the class. According to my Chemistry instructor, the step of increasing your grade by 10% is already a major achievement. But still, 10% is only 10%. Anyone can do more than that if they allow it to be. Moving on, I've been so blessed to get all A's on my 3 subjects--English, Chemistry and Psychology--considering my situation. That afterall, I am not born smart, I just know how to get things done with passion and to go across every challenges of this battle.

Like Julius Caesar when he crossed the Rubicon, I would say that I, too, have come to a point of no return. I have made up my mind and I am positive that this is the way to go. I could have started school 2 semesters ago but in my case, I needed a lot of consideration and preparation. To me, it’s not just a matter of going back to school. This is my personal mission to give meaning to the sacrifices I have made in the past--to be a lawyer, to prove to myself that I came here for something bigger and that I can only make it so if I allow it to be. As I travel on this journey, I know that there will be more struggle, more doubts here and there, more homework, that everyday stress and the little demons that needs to be slain, but despite that, I know there will always be smiles and laughter, a cause that needs to be championed, friends you can call, people who need care and love more than you do and the knowledge that you can be at peace wherever you may be.

Jerry Yan

Jerry Yan is the most promising actor in Southeast Asia. He was first casted in Meteor Garden, a soap opera inspirationed by a Japanese Manga, Hanna Yori Dango. He took countries like China, Philippines, Indonesia, Malaysia, Singapore, Taiwan, Japan and Korea by storm through his one of a kind charm.

Perfect beyond imperfection

I was so blessed to be involved in this kind of work--Nursing. This morning I was working on the other wing of the floor when a familiar lady asked me to see his husband who was my patient for 4 days. She said that her husband wants to say goodbye before they go home. So I went to his room and saw him on his great street clothes; very different from the last time I had him. I can see his teary eyes from afar as I approached him. Our initial reaction was just to hug each other. For someone like him who've been through a lot of pains, I didn't expect that a grateful heart is what he has had to offer. The family even invited me to their house for dinner since it's only a few blocks away from my school, KCC. Most people would burry themselves onto sea of despair whenever faced with big challenges. When my own ordeal comes, I will think of him and push through with courage like how he won his battle. You made my day, sir! Thank you for the cash. hahahaha.

New York State of Mind

It's definite. I just got my NYC itinerary from expedia. I never expected that it would be too soon for me to see the Big Apple. Eversince I was kid, I've been dreaming of having a grand Manhattan vacation; the place where everything can happen--nightlife, shopping, fashion, museums, broadway shows etc. I will be flying on May 11, the next day after our finals. Cities to be covered on my 10 day sojourn are Boston, Baltimore, DC and Jersey. This is the best time to see old faces whom I have lost contact with along the way; really really really a breath of fresh air for me.

Mission Impossible

If fate had played out its steady course, I would’ve been a junior law student, hunched over pages of Taxation and Ethics, burning my eyelids as our old folks would say, in my humble place in Sampaloc, some 2 miles from my school in the Philippines. But instead, I am in my scrubs 32 hours a week, 10,000 miles from home, in a job that could be considered as very menial and degrading, at least, in my country’s discriminatory yet superficial standards. After I found out that I had the opportunity of migrating to the United States, I left my homeland 2 years ago with a burning zeal that I would be better than a lawyer could be. The decision has nothing against my motherland, in fairness to the country who in itself is continuously trying to resolve its internal and external conflicts amidst the chaos of economic and political strife that happens to be everyday news. This choice, whether to continue living in a 3rd world or chase the American dream that so many immigrants from all over the globe have been doing since time immemorial, was the hardest decision I have made so far. After all, it’s not easy to sacrifice a goal that was almost in your hands. All immigrants in one way or another share the same cause of moving here and that is to seek a greener pasture not only for themselves but more so for their future families; that having sufficient amount of food on the table, clothes in their closets and a roof over their heads may not be enough reasons to be happy and contented. And by being one of them, I am willing to risk everything, whatever the price may be. In doing so, I do hope that when I look back 10 years from now, I can certainly say that I’ve taken the right path on my hardest decision.