The Rewards of My Own Stress

Most of my close friends know how much stress I have been getting for the past 3 months of juggling work and school. Physically, it's deadly. There are times that it's really hard to drive at 5 o'clock in the morning with only 4 hours of sleep that night. Sometimes, I want to give up and sometimes I want to go home. I am glad that there are friends who continuously inspire and make me stronger. This day marked the middle of the spring semester and my professors already gave us our class standing. It's reflective on how much more effort you have to exert to pass the class. According to my Chemistry instructor, the step of increasing your grade by 10% is already a major achievement. But still, 10% is only 10%. Anyone can do more than that if they allow it to be. Moving on, I've been so blessed to get all A's on my 3 subjects--English, Chemistry and Psychology--considering my situation. That afterall, I am not born smart, I just know how to get things done with passion and to go across every challenges of this battle.

Like Julius Caesar when he crossed the Rubicon, I would say that I, too, have come to a point of no return. I have made up my mind and I am positive that this is the way to go. I could have started school 2 semesters ago but in my case, I needed a lot of consideration and preparation. To me, it’s not just a matter of going back to school. This is my personal mission to give meaning to the sacrifices I have made in the past--to be a lawyer, to prove to myself that I came here for something bigger and that I can only make it so if I allow it to be. As I travel on this journey, I know that there will be more struggle, more doubts here and there, more homework, that everyday stress and the little demons that needs to be slain, but despite that, I know there will always be smiles and laughter, a cause that needs to be championed, friends you can call, people who need care and love more than you do and the knowledge that you can be at peace wherever you may be.